what are these titles really for?

"where is he?"

tonight i spend a saturday night at home alone, watching some remington steele. keith is out at a fight - apparently a coworker of his is also a part-time fighter. he's been gone since 5, and i just called him, and he's just arriving at the fight place. 2.5 hours later? i know for a fact the place is about half an hour from our house. i wonder what he was doing. i would have totally given him crap about it, but he had me on speakerphone in the car with friend there, too, so i couldn't without making myself look like a nagging wife. i had to turn my shock into a "haha-wow! don't get into too much trouble, boys!" attitude.

"i'm his associate"

we spent the day in old town. we tried the new sushi place by my office for lunch, and it was yummy. my salad had a lot of ginger, though, so my mouth started to swell a little. but yummy nonetheless. then we walked around town, popping into shops here and there, and ending up in the amazing candy shop and getting bunches of cordials and truffles. so, while keith might have left me for the night - he has left me with all that chocolate.

"you don't think he's in any kind of danger, do you?"

things are in upheaval around my office, and yet they're still settling down. it's interesting how things turn on their ear in a day or two.

"should i pretend i don't know who you are?"

my mother always said that she had the demon of paper in her house. i'm afraid i've inherited it. does anyone have tricks or inspiration as to how to get off my duff and file it all away/throw it away/etc? i had an inkling for the mood earlier today, but it left me along with the setting of the sun.

"i like doing business with a man who likes doing business"

the thing i've been mysterious about for the month of november is going well. i've stuck to my guns so far for the first week. i hope this means it will become more of a habit than a... chore? i feel good about myself for having completed a whole week without cheating in any way, and in the action itself. i've put stickers on my calendar for each day the task is complete, so seeing the shiny little red hearts on seven days in a row is very encouraging.

Currently Remington Steele - Season 1 By Stephanie Zimbalist, Pierce Brosnan, James Read, Janet DeMay, Phil Rubenstein see related

writing every day? nope.

"i took a stab at revising my letter"

i understand we're supposed to blog every day this month? i'm not going to commit, but i'm already doing better than i have been almost all year.

another thing that makes me happy is remington's theme music on remington steele. love it.

"to follow thee more nearly"

i miss my coworker whose last day was last friday. he sent us a picture of his new desk yesterday. it looks like he's in a hallway, facing a kitchen. but it actually looks nice and cozier than it sounds. and my boss should be arriving any minute now in NC. she's got her closing on her new home tomorrow! pushed back about a week, and very stressed, but nice, all in all. she bought me a monster cookie this afternoon before she left. there's a bakery down the street from our office that kind of is our unofficial cafeteria. she came back with cookies the size of dinner plates. i gave half of my cookie to keith.

"God save the people"

i voted today! i got my sticker, and i am happy. i like having a say in things. it was my first time voting in a non-presidential election. i felt like i was really doing something. and the sheriff was unopposedly up for reelection, and i saw his name and was like - i met him! he was at a volunteer recognition event that i went to just a few weeks ago. nice man. poor public speaker. i also met a recently elected councilman there who has been popping up everywhere since then. what do councilmen do?

"i shall call the pebble dare"

i've been getting a lot of projects done at work, and i feel very confident. it's better than last week. last week i wasn't feeling confident, and i wasn't really motivated to do anything. i guess i was in the doldrums about my coworker quitting on us. i'm moving on a lot faster than a lot of other people, though, it seems. i think it's because i've personally job hopped a bit in the past few years, along with moving from neighborhood to neighborhood, and i know that true friendships last through all of that. so, i miss seeing him everyday, but i know in my heart that i'll be seeing him again soon and often. i mean, heck. what other ex-coworkers send pictures of their new desk the first day on the job?

getting back on topic - i'm feeling confident. i'm feeling like i could wake up early every day this month and work out. and cook awesome meals for myself and my hub, and my puppy (when she gets the dinner remnants). i like feeling confident. it doesn't happen all that often, but when it does, i promise - i relish it. tomorrow i'll be back to weeping over spilled milk and saying it's a sign of my failed marriage and that i'm going to be fired. what a drama queen.

"sparkle sparkle"

i dusted off the godspell soundtrack this morning, and it was the peppiest, brightest commuting music i've listened to in a while. although, i'd like to find my old ipod shuffle and clear it out and see if i can't get some sermons on there to listen to in the car - though i don't think i even have a car adaptor. yes. i'm the boring kid that wants to listen to sermons. if you went to my church, though - you'd want to listen to them all again, too.  speaking of which, actually, our church is doing a "plant" in a town right next to us! we have joined in the "planting team" and went to our first meeting last sunday night. i'm certainly looking forward to just hopping city limits, rather than driving to maryland every stinking weekend. not that it's a bad drive. it's just tiring. and expensive, with gas. i'm really excited about this new church plant. we're going to have friends in our own back yard! this is something i've been dreaming of and hoping for since i moved down here from PA all those years ago. (i make it sound like it was a really long time ago, though it was only 4 years).

"sugar"

i'm somehow reminded by the above quote of the part in lil' abner where the girl askes the guy to "whisper sweet nothings" in her ear, and he shouts at her, "BANANA CREAM PIE!" and storms off.

Currently Godspell: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack see related

fascinating

"this is all very flattering, but surely there are other men"

thank you little lemon girl in seattle, for your encouragement. it's nice to know i'm missed here.  i would also like you to know that i've still been following you all this time, and i'm mighty proud of you.

"madame wants you to know that she will not scratch you"

i have had such an interesting time with life since i last wrote. so many strange things are happening. my friend is still leaving our office this friday. but, my boss has had a snag in her home buying in NC - she's Dutch, and the bank was uber stupid and only translated half of their documents. when they went to closing on monday, they said they needed them all translated. i would raise such cane if it were me. but it's not, and she's got so much more patience than i have. that is why it is happening to her, and not to me.

"coconut replaces the smell of the bar"

on the home front, our new church plant is meeting this sunday evening, and i don't know how we're going to swing it. to make it to church in the morning, and to attend the evening meeting, we'll have to bring our puppy, and we'll have to leave her somewhere in the meantime. i hate to do that to my brother since his kids are all afraid of her, other than my niece. i suppose it's not that big of an issue, but it does take my thoughts.

"every time i try to tell her how i feel it comes out 'i love you'"

i do not know how i am going to handle the time change this weekend. i am already getting up in the dark, and getting home in the dark. i feel like the time change won't make a whole lot of difference. it's so sad. when i am at home in the dark, i just want to sit, and read, or watch films, or do some busy-work-like thing. i only ever get into the mood to do something productive at home when it's light out. i almost want to take a day to just do housework. but, i have a moral stance against taking a day off to do something unpleasant, unless i'm actually sick. otherwise, the days off ought to be fun.

"i found her drowning in the river"

 i am going to challenge myself to accomplish a task during the month of november. if i partake in a touch of this task at least once a day, every day, for 30 days, then i get a new pair of shoes! i have had nasty luck with following through with myself when i've told people of my goals, so we'll just use this for a bit of accountability. not total accountability.

"we cannot afford to wait for these veils to lift"

i have been noticing things that make me happy, lately. and apparently, i have been announcing them when i notice them. so much so that a coworker of mine responded to an exclamation of mine that he likes it when things make me happy. i thought it was sweet. but, to name a few - i like the jerry's subs radio commercials with celebrity impersonations. i like when my office computer talks to the printer. i like the clouds at sunset on my drive home. i like how my puppy wiggles when i come home. i like the taste of so many kinds of food. i like coca cola with ice in it - not without. i like old dressers with marble tops. i like to learn new things. i like umbrellas. i like watching a bunch of golden leaves dancing down to earth with a sigh of autumn, bringing the scents of many a new school year and freedom. i like being alone with my thoughts, though sometimes i can run away with myself. i like the atmosphere of the impending holiday season. i like colored glass lamps - the opaque kind. i like that hazel's head oftentimes smells like keith's cologne in the mornings when he's given her some pettings after he's gotten ready for the day and before he heads to work. i like scrambled eggs with salsa in them, but not with milk. i like crocs. i like my memories - all throughout life. oh, i've had some embarrassing moments, but over all, i like my life's memories.

i'm such a fool. it's wild to think i've gotten along this far in life without any more enemies than i've got.

i would like to own a hat with feathers in it, some day.

Currently Emily's Quest (Emily Novels) By L.M. Montgomery see related

Whoa.

"but for now it's between green and grey"

it's been a long time. aren't you glad i started it with something so cliche? i've no idea if anyone still reads this or not, but it's still mine, and i still like to share things into the abyss of ether.

"green is the color i see around her, she's just a blur"

lots of things have changed. lots have stayed the same. but for now, there's turmoil and stagnation at the same time. it's weird, and i totally haven't been myself. i mean, i totally bombed in a meeting today and had to publicly apologize to the CEO for not being properly prepared. but i was prepared - physically. i had my notes and everything. my brain was just completely blank. i looked at my papers and couldn't even read, though i saw all the words. i had another coworker who wasn't even in the meeting sending me random super-cute pictures of kittens because he thought i needed a sweetness recharge. another coworker unexpectedly went to starbucks and bought me my favorite soy chai. and in the end, i sat down with my CEO and another coworker and had a great discussion about how they are going to bolster my department and that i'm getting staff under me, and all these great things, and then she told me to go home a few minutes early because the weather was gross. i still ended up leaving at the regular time, but it's the thought that counts.

"grey is the color that everyone sees all around me"

then there are the things like, one of my best coworker friends is quitting at the end of this month, and my boss (who is also my career mentor) is moving to NC, but will be working remotely and probably won't be my boss anymore. yet, i'm getting staff for my department! and on the personal level - my NY bro and his wife just had their first baby - a boy! Caden Richard. it's a celtic/English name, apparently. and, the Richard is kind of a big family name. you know the statue and everything in NJ for richard stockton, who signed the dec. of indep. for NJ? yeah. that name. then keith's sister is ready to have her little girl any day, too. it was a race to the finish between andrea and deanna. andrea won. then keith's sister-in-law (mine, too, it's just so you know which side of the fam) is due in january. i've given up on the making baby blanket things, considering the first blanket for the twins is still unfinished in my nightstand drawer. i keep it close by just in case i get the chance to work on it. haven't worked on it since getting hazel, and that was over 2 years ago...

"h-heaving, f-flames! on the side of my face..."

i love that i can let my dog in from outside in the rain and when she crawls into my lap, she still smells sweet. it's been over a week since her last bath, and she still smells sweet. i highly recommend the arm and hammer puppy conditioner. it's makes for sweet dogs! i have to say, she's being really cute, too. she's all curled up in my lap with her little pink turtleneck cableknit sweater on with her little cold feeties all tucked in for warmth. it got a little cold out overnight, and she's not used to it yet. the cutie-pie. i'm taking her to a fairly well renouned puppy boutique this weekend, if the weather permits and i'm feeling up to it. i want them to cut her nails. i've seen three dogs that get their nails done there and i'm wildly impressed. i just wonder what it's going to cost.

"turn all your hands from working long days"

it's nice to be back. it's almost like coming home. strange, eh?

Currently Clue By Eileen Brennan, Tim Curry, Madeline Kahn, Christopher Lloyd, Michael McKean see related

my dog came from the labyrinth